Monday, October 6, 2014

Brick Walls

It's no secret that my life hasn't been going according to plan lately. I've been Crohns-ing for a few months because my new medicine hasn't been keeping some of my symptoms at bay. Instead of starting my fellowship last month, I had to scramble to find another job because the organization I was supposed to work for decided to close. On top of that, I left the bar exam in July and was absolutely certain I failed.

I'm still not feeling my best, my job isn't a permanent one, and bar results aren't out yet. Nothing about my world feels steady. I am a boat overturned and I spend most of my days trying desperately to turn myself aright. I've never been some Little Suzy Sunshine, and hope usually leads to disappointment in my world, but today, I taped the quote above to my desk so that if things keep going wrong, I'll remember not to give up. 

This is not the first set of brick walls I have faced and it probably won't be the last. I'm too stubborn to give up. And I've come too far not to finish what I started. I don't know which brick walls I will have to tear down next, but I guess I'm ready to do some dismantling. At this point, overcoming the obstacles in my path seems like the only choice.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Weekend Rundown

Let me give you a brief recap of my weekend. As per usual, it started on Saturday morning with a walk in the woods.

I decided to start out on the lake trail and then attempt one of the more rustic trails once I had gotten my water feature fix. 

I won't say I got tired of this view, because I don't really think that's possible, but I did eventually veer off the lake trail to head into the woods. I chose a trail at random and ended up on a steep, narrow trail with tree roots and loose rocks making the path a bit treacherous. I'm guessing it was meant for more serious hikers since I kept seeing people with trekking poles and daypacks, but I soldiered on even though I wasn't prepared like that because adventuring. At one point I was convinced that the trail did not in fact loop back around to the lake and I was lost in the woods with no food or water and a dying cell phone, but it turned out okay. I kept following the trail and eventually got back to familiar territory. Stats for Saturday: 14,051 steps, 48 floors climbed, and 5.77 miles total.

I wasn't feeling quite as chipper when I woke up this morning, so I didn't take a road trip to a new park the way I had planned. Instead, I found myself catching up on television until well into the afternoon. I watched the Gracepoint pilot (dark police drama that I think I will like), Red Band Society (quirky drama about sick kids who live in a hospital that I found deeply relatable as someone who has spent ample time in hospitals) and The Mysteries of Laura pilot (light-hearted police comedy that I didn't really care for). Eventually I dragged myself outside for a long, but easy walk at one of my favorite parks.

I parked my car by the lake and apparently interrupted a party. The ducks were incredibly friendly and welcoming, though. As soon as I got out of the car they all started walking toward me to say hello. They eventually carried on with what they were doing when they realized I didn't have food, but I was surprised they let me get that close. 

I hadn't been to this particular park in a while and I discovered that they had started building some new trails in my absence. I did a little exploring on one of the new trails, but ultimately stuck to my tried and true favorites. I started listening to the second audiobook in the White Trash Zombie series (Even White Trash Zombies Get the Blues). I was so engrossed in the story that I almost didn't notice the snake slithering across the pavement until I was right on top of it.  I was very proud of myself for not running away shrieking. I might have stopped dead in my tracks and stared like an absolute lunatic, but I did not shriek or run. It probably helped that it was only a little green garden snake. I will not be responsible for my actions if I ever come across a bigger one. Stats for Sunday: 15,277 steps, 13 floors, and 6.28 miles total. 

Have you ever had any animal encounters while getting your workout in?